Poke Poke Poke. You comin' for prayer? I get up dazed and go through the motions of making it to the family room couch. Hailey impatient, in a hurry and irritated at the halt of her morning ritual. Kallee says her quick prayer and immediately everyone breaks. I kneel for another min., not to pray but to stretch the tight muscles in the back of my neck. Eventually, I get up and climb back into bed.

Corey comes back in. "be careful" as he leans to give me a kiss, the morning routine for years. I can barely get out "yeah, this will be interesting after sleeping for 3 days", again...."be careful". He turns as an after thought, "are you going to call on the eye stuff and Haileys contacts?" I don't know if I said it out loud or not but I was thinking "are you freaking kidding me?" I stayed silent eyes closed. His response: "I can stop and get them on the way home." As he left the room I whispered. "you are such a man". "Yeah", he said and left for work. It was nice to have him and the older to out and on their way.

Kallee is always excited for school and was rearin' to go. I had a hard time focusing as I drove and kept thinking....maybe people will think I'm swaying to gentle music. We made it. I took the back roads back home....I only crossed the line once but, no one was there. I laughed to myself thinking. It would be hilarious. I could photocopy my birdy finger at the cops and fax it over to Corey with the request to come pick me up. I talked to mom for a min. but the phone kept cutting out. She called again and I told her I was home. I don't think she heard me start to cry as I hung up.

Dutifully, I called and got eye appointments for Hailey and Braydon for Thursday. I need to stop and pick up a sample so Hailey can have "connies" until then. She ran out and of course can't do ANYTHING without them. Braydon's 2nd pair of glasses got lost at Bogus Basin when he was skiing. He had the time of his life. Both are paying for their own this time (difference of the insurance coverage anyway). I didn't tell Corey. He'll figure it out.

I'm thinking that today while Rosa (my cleaning lady is here) that I might go get a hair cut so that it is short and not so so terrible bed head. My hair literally comes out in a full handful each time I shower. I wonder if it is meds.? I dunno. It isn't like I can't spare any. I need a pedicure too. I'm tired of my heels scratching and catching on my blankets. The only problem is that I can't stand for anyone to touch me........maybe not such a good idea for today.

I am also looking for a place close by that I can have a private retreat for a few days. I need to find some good books to take with me, water, my own personal pharmacy and a beautiful view and places to walk. I'm surprised....I don't have a desire to take anyone with me.

It is only 10:30 and I'm exhausted. What a waste of time off work, waste of life to be sleeping it away. I do love my bed and it is comforting to have absolute silence, soft blankets, warmth and no interruptions. Yawn..........