Mom and Dad stayed for the weekend and Monday. The kids were soooo glad to play and have a change up. Poor things have been having to be quiet and hold still. I did really pretty good until they left. It was weird. I was ready to have my house back and slink into my blanket and my couch corner. (You thought I was going to say PJ's huh? nope, other than dinner that is what I wore).

I stuck to my guns and dad brought his own diet coke and I bought dinner. I had black licorice, neccos, cloves sticks, chips, nuts, etc. for him and hot tamles and m&m's for mom though. He bought new virus stuff for the comupter and hit the store for me.

You know, I don't think he and I know how to interact with my newest personality. You know, the ones with claws and a broom. I've never dared stand up to him but, right now I don"t have any soft spots. His logical comments aren't helping this time. Mom even gave ME "sounds like a Buys"! I even tried to lean against him on the couch but, no luck. (Or the constant reminder don't touch my back or neck- the firecrackers go off) Maybe he is as tired of this as I am and has just run out of juice and the fact that I don't have a whole lot of desire to fight this pisses him off. eh. I wouldn't know what to say to me either. Just about anything is likely to get your head bit off. He likes playing around on the computer this trip and we watched the 2nd Narnia.

Mom of course cooked and cleaned and did laundry. She plaid with the kids and did Kallees hair. The left overs are nice. She is just quietly there. We had a few good short talks.

I feel bad for the worry that I cause them. I did pretty good until they left. I lost it. Embarrassing and we'll leave it at that. But, I cried off and on all night long because I can't shelter them as well this time. I use to find myslef almost deserving bragging rights all these years of putting up a good front. This time my brain has other ideas and my thoughts are just fighting to get out of me. LOL. Dad once said "babe, just write them down on a piece of paper in your mind and throw them away." It didn't work before but, in some ways it helps now. I don't know who I'll be if I make it out of this one. Hopefully, I'll find out sooner or later. Dr. appointment tomorrow. Whoooo hoooo! I hope I remember what I want to say. Tomorrow I will forget most and only talk about the way I feel at the moment. Sleepy, pissed and vinegar, and my thoughts are becoming more ballsy? We'll see. I'm home alone today and I like the quiet. That didn't use to be me. Off and on Slumber. I have a book if I want it. Perfect.